Sunday, 25 October 2009


I was at a funeral yesterday, a friend who passed in his sleep recently. He was a quiet and private man but he was an alcoholic and in the end it killed him. Whilst I was sat in the crematorium I thought how sad is this, only ten people including the vicar attending, can this really be the sum of a mans life?

It has caused me to reflect on my own life, or more to the point where its at right now. Here I am 48 years old, failed marriage, failed business, failing health, lonely, isolated, homeless and broke. The only upside are my 3 wonderful children without whom I may have given up long ago.

I am without doubt a product of the 70's care system in Jersey, locked away or my own good, labelled as 'a difficult child', subjected to mental and physical abuse, deprived of love and affection and sadly unable to cope with life and relationships.

However, I wont give up, for the one thing I gained whilst in care was my inner spirit and strength. So, like the phoenix I will rise again and as the song says 'THINGS CAN ONLY GET BETTER!'

Friday, 16 October 2009

Education pair will not be prosecuted

Attorney-General William Bailhache

Attorney-General William Bailhache

THE senior Education Department civil servant investigated by the police as part of the historical child abuse inquiry will not be prosecuted, the Attorney General has decided.

It is believed that this decision was made after the file was examined by independent advocates and a Queen’s Counsel in the UK.

A decision not to prosecute has also been made about a former member of the Education department who was also investigated as part of the inquiry. It is believed that the Attorney General, William Bailhache, informed the States Police of the decision about six weeks ago.

After being asked this week to confirm that the two men were no longer being investigated, the Law Officers’ Department issued the following statement: ‘As the Attorney General informed the States in July 2009, it is not the practice of the Law Officers’ department to comment on individual decisions not to prosecute. It is not appropriate to make any further comment.’

Article posted on 16th October, 2009 - 2.57pm, This is Jersey

Sunday, 4 October 2009

Many rivers to cross

Been caught in a bad bout of depression for a few days now but was listening to some tunes earlier and this just caught my interest. Its just one of those songs that I listen to and think 'thats me'.
Hope you enjoy it and I've included the lyrics.

Many rivers to cross
But I can't seem to find my way over
Wandering I am lost
As I travel along the white cliffs of dover

Many rivers to cross
And it's only my will that keeps me alive
I've been licked, washed up for years
And I merely survive because of my pride

And this loneliness won't leave me alone
It's such a drag to be on your own
My woman left me and she didn't say why
Well, I guess I'll have to cry

Many rivers to cross
But just where to begin I'm playing for time
There have been times I find myself
Thinking of committing some dreadful crime

Yes, I've got many rivers to cross
But I can't seem to find my way over
Wandering, I am lost
As I travel along the white cliffs of Dover

Yes, I've got many rivers to cross
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