Sunday, 29 April 2007


I'm not an easy maker of friends, I have always found it hard to 'break the ice' as such so therefore my circle of friends remains very very small!

Just recently, through the power of the net, I have made a new friend. In a short space of time she has become very dear to me.She listens to me without judging and trys to give me advice when she feels she can. She never says 'dont do that' or 'do this' just points out the options. But most of all she has the ability to always put a smile on my face. I'm not gonna give her name, that would be unfair, however, I would just like to say to her

You're my sunshine
And I want you to know
That my feelings are true
I really love you
You're my best friend

(Queen -You're my best friend)

Friday, 20 April 2007


STUCK by Marky Mark

Stuck here nowhere to go,

Stuck here nowhere to hide,

Stuck here felling so low,

Stuck here lost all my pride.

Stuck here Pretending to smile,

Stuck here forcing a grin,

Stuck here gonna be for a while,

Stuck here holding it in.

Stuck here they broke my spirit,

Stuck here they broke my heart,

Stuck here starting to fear it,

Stuck here falling apart.

Stuck here all on my own,

Stuck here no one to hold,

Stuck here feeling alone,

Stuck here ready to fold.

Stuck here trying so hard,

Stuck here just wanna fit,

stuck here permanently scarred,

Stuck here until i quit.

Tuesday, 17 April 2007

Loneliness in a sea of people

Having spent the last 14 years married and with 3 children to take care of suddenly I find myself on my own and it is extremely difficult to adjust. Having moved to the midlands so my soon to be ex wife could be near her family meant I left my friends and all my familiar surroundings behind and now I find myself in a city full of people, alone!
I have suffered from depression for many years but now it really is rearing its ugly head,some days,like today I feel like just packing a bag and leaving it all behind. Yes I know its the easy way to just 'run away', I spent most of my teens and twenty's doing it,but for me it seems better thansitting in an empty house like 'billy-no-mates'
Oh well, I guess I'll spend another night mulling over things and a clash song springs to mind....'Should I stay or should I go?'

Friday, 13 April 2007

Hey, it's me blog!

So I finally decided to start a blog, well actually got fed up updating 360 & spaces so I now just do this one.
I don't suppose many peeps will be interested in what I have to say but what the heck, someone may get a laugh or two from the ramblings of a mid 40's ex drunk, ex addict, ex biker with no hair and no teeth!
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